The Skinny on Me

• SW: 176
• LWIW: 165.6
• CW: 167.6
• Difference: +2
• Total: -8.4

Operation VEGAS

In two weeks, I’ll be in Tucson to spend some quality time with my grandmother (who’s been in and out of the hospital). In two and a half weeks, I’ll be in Vegas. Originally, the plan was was simply have a layover in Tucson, but the opportunity presented itself, so now I’ll be spending a few days at home before the crazy shenanigans ensue. 

This means that, I have 2 weeks to get my ass in gear with Operation VEGAS. 

What is Operation VEGAS, you ask? Well…

• Run 4x a week 
• No snacking on work snacks
• No (repeat, NO) bagel Thursday
• Agua, lots of ague

Yesterday (Day 1 of Operation VEGAS) I knocked out 5 miles after work. Today, I’m hoping for 3-4. Plus, I’m bringing my running gear to work to hopefully squeeze in some walking time with a coworker over lunch (we’ve been trying for the last week and have yet to actually head outside). 

Today’s Food:

Breakfast — 230 cal

• 1 Jimmy Dean Turkey Sausage Patty (60 cal)
• Cinnamon & Spice Instant Oatmeal (170 cal)

Snack — 140 cal

• Open Nature Blueberry Greek Yogurt (140 cal)

Lunch — 377 cal

• Chicken and White Bean Stuffed Peppers (2 halves, 342 cal)
• Baby carrots, 10 (35 cal)

Snack — 135 cal

• String cheese, light (60 cal)
• Celery + PB (75 cal)

Dinner — 343 cal

• Turkey and Black Bean Enchiladas (343 cal — with ground beef not turkey) 
• Red wine

Total: 1225 cal

Now … to figure out when to squeeze time in for my run. My number one pet peeve is running after eating. Maybe I’ll have my roomie take over in the kitchen, while the enchiladas are in the oven (30 min), while I go for a quick 3-miler. 

As I mentioned yesterday, I’ve lost my way. In the last few weeks, I’ve found myself employed with a “big girl” job, commuting an 1+ each way and struggling to find time for me. I’ve also been surrounded by sweets and treats and trying to avoid them as best I could (I mostly failed). 

Though I’ve somewhat inconsistently continued with my morning pages goal, I’ve posted less and less to tumblr. Truth be told, I miss tumblr. Tumblr is number one weight loss body. We all come together with a common goal and end up supporting each other in a way unlike any other. We understand each other’s pain, each other’s motivation, each other’s desire. 

I need that back in life. I need to find a time to sit and write how I feel and to recount how I did. I need the chance to own up to my failures so that I can improve my chances to succeed. 

I’m done missing tumblr. Welcome back, Lauren! 

In the anticipation/excitement of starting my new “big girl” job, I seriously underestimated the toll it would take on both my exercise routine and my eating habits. For starters, I’ve gone running once since I started my job. Although, I have also been sick since I started working too. 

On top of that, my eating habits this past week and a half have been out the wazoo bad. We’re talking real bad. Today, my goals were simple: 

• Don’t drink alcohol
• Leave one english muffin half untouched at breakfast (Eggs benedict… sauce on the side)
• Order fruit instead of the potatoes
• Maybe even skip the eggs benedict altogether…

I succeeded at one of them (no alcohol). 

I also overloaded on sushi — 1/2 California Roll, Tuna Roll and Salmon Avocado. It was delicious, but in the end, was it worth it? I know I would have been fine less one roll. So no, it wasn’t really worth it. 

I need to get back on track. I need to start running again. I gained a pound a half last week, and I am well on track to repeating that again this week. I worked hard. I was diligent. This is not the point to go and throw that all away. Even more, I — my hardest critic — was beginning to notice the changes. Why throw that away?

Remember how I felt over Thanksgiving? Remember what it was like to hear my own mother describe me as being fat, overweight and “getting bigger” continually over the break? Remember how I felt after downing too much Halloween candy? As painful as it may be, I need to remember all the things that pushed me in the first place.

And then, I need to remember all the things that happened after that made we want to keep going. I need to get back to that point. I can do it; I know I can. 

Tomorrow, I’m getting my trial membership to LA Fitness. Tomorrow, I’m running three miles. 

For the most part, I’ve already pre-planned my food for tomorrow:

• Breakfast: 2 turkey sausage links (7 am), egg (9 am), chobani (11 am)
• Lunch: 2 quinoa burgers, lettuce bun, tomato slices and a side of carrots (1 or 2 pm)
• Snack: low-fat string cheese (3 or 4 pm)
• Dinner: ???

What up, Fitblrs? I apologize in advance if I start to sound at all glum or down in this post. I’ve been trying to keep my good ‘ole happy-go-lucky self out and about these days (especially when blogging), but sometimes you can’t always fake it till you make it. 

In a somewhat shocking turn of events, I managed to lose 1.8 pounds this week. To be honest, I felt that I would at least lose something, but not that much. Why? Well, in addition to my tendencies to drink more than I should, chow down on yummy sweet potato fries and mac n’ cheese grilled cheese sandwhiches (really good) and giving in to the occasional urges to skip running that day, I also was a bit down in the dumps this week. Being the emotional eater that I am, that meant dragging out the peanut butter and chocolate chip morsels left over from my roommates cooking adventures. Never a good combo. 

Word to the wise, don’t keep that shit around the house. Hopefully my roommate doesn’t need anymore, cause I’m tempted to throw that stuff out (the chocolate chip morsels at least). 

At this point, I’m a mere two-tenths of a pound away from being out of the 170s. Only .2 lbs! Because of this so close, yet so far dilemma I find myself in, I know I can do better. There’s a reason I’ve been pushing myself so hard the last few weeks, and I can’t lose sight of it now. 

My goals for this week:

• Finish Week 8 of C25k: 1 run down, 2 to go! 
• Sign up for the Polar Dash 5k (January 14)
• Throw out that damn bag of semi-sweet chocolate morsels
• Have fun (but no too much fun!) 
• If (not when, but if) I fall of track, get back on it right away. 
• Exercise video it up (as much as I love running, that’s not what it’s all about)
• Start the month-long push up challenge (see next post)